Stay Focused

Stay focused. Simple enough statement. Doesn’t matter what’s going on in your life or your world. Stay focused and work the problem. Stay focused on one thing at a time. Don’t worry about the things that you cannot change. Work on the things that you can. Everything else will find a way to be solved. Don’t allow your worries, battles, force you to stop. Don’t question yourself. What you are capable of doing. Because you know who you are, what you need, what you want, your deepest desire. Use it! Find that thing that you believe in and make it happen.

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Why I Enjoy Being BBW

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I have been a BBW every since I was a kid. True story. I have always been decked out as a woman every since I was around 13. Tall. Long hair. Round face. Big tits of 44 D cups. Round hips with ass. I stayed around 230 to 250lb all through elementary school and middle school. Until the last year when my 44 D turned up into a 44 DD. So being 5’6 and everything stacked out like that. I have always been thick. I have to be honestly. As sexy as I was. Because of lots mental abuse and humiliation from family members and then of course the bullying that comes from being a kid. I never knew back then just what a knock out I was. I cried and stayed depressed quite a lot.

It wasn’t until I turned 16 years old and knew I had no real interest in anyone my own age because of the things I liked. Reading. Writing. Watching great movies that had nothing to do with how my race is portrayed. That we are all ghetto. Bangers and ignorant. Black sluts that have 5 different babies with more men that have taken them for a ride she doesn’t know whom her baby daddy is. All of that crazy bang bang shoot it up stuff, wasn’t if interest to me, and I found no boys that were anything like me in that sense. Only grown men. The way my first boyfriend and love treated me. Looked at me. Made me feel. It made me look into the mirror for the first time in years and not hate who I saw there. My dad that was never a real dad or there for me. Or the fat ugly chick my moms family called me. Along with normal bullying I got from school.

The way this man talked around my body made me proud to own it. I for the first time in my life had true confidence and began to appreciate and love my curves. I have had clients, and fans alike ask me over the past 7 years. When did you decide to blown up to 350lbs. Like I have told many. I didn’t decide on it. I got myself in a situation where when I moved after leaving High School I had no ride. The area I moved too, had taxi that charged $30 just to go to one place and back to my residence. After a year still living in the same city we moved to another house that was right behind the major stores and restaurants in the city. So we did what I have been doing my whole life when my family was without a car.

I walked. I tapped into my new found talent of finding whatever I wanted online and purchased grocery carts for me and my family and we would walk up to the stores every Friday. Sit down and have a nice meal. Before purchasing our things. Loading up my carts and pushing them back home. It was about half a mile there and back. Which helped me continue to stay around 250 lbs. But once it became full of crime and drama, slowly be surely we stopped. Money flow changed and we where able to find a better ride for better prices. So riding to other areas to shop became a routine. Working on the computer. Attending school on the computer. Spending all of my time behind the computer and never really leaving home for long. Ballooned me up to 350 lbs.

Am I ashamed want to lose the weight? No I am not ashamed. Its because unlike my first years on this earth. Weather anyone else loves me and what I look like. I do. That’s all I tend to care about, other peoples opinions roll off me, and I never think about them again. Do I plan to lose weight? Yes I do. But not because of shame. The extra weight is starting to hurt my health. I have breathing issues. Aches and pains all over my body and even parts of my body that slips out of place within seconds. I love what I do ( camming) but not only does it tire me out quick. But it also hurts my body when it gets a nice workout in doing back to back shows for a week. Then bam no shows at all for another two. So much show, I’ve laid off of doing short shows at all.


Also I am now ready to get pregnant. For all of my real fans that’s been following me for a while now. You have heard me talk about saving some money to get pregnant and to live off of once it happens depending on if the doctor tells me I need to be on bed rest and things of that nature. Well I have recently found a really good donor, drama free that’s ready and willing to help me make my dreams come true. Because your blood pressure and diabetes could rise while pregnant I’ve placed on orders to get mine down now among other things I don’t feel comfortable putting in the streets. So for now, getting my stomach down and those two things down is the races why I am getting the weight down. But don’t you worry for one second. lol I will not be a bone. These big ass tits and fat juicy ass that thunder claps all over your computer screen will not be going anywhere! Just strength training and burning some fat!

So why do I love being a BBW????

Because I love to be warm. Cuddly. Most small framed women I know complain about being freezing cold. I already have a medical condition that messes with my body temperature taking way to long to warm up. I couldn’t handle being 150lbs it would probably make me feel like I was dying from not being able to get warm enough. I love having huge natural tits I didn’t have to pay for. No shade to the ones that have gotten there boobs done. Just love I didn’t have to spend the money to have double d’s.

I love that way my thighs out and to attention. My fat round ass. No pumping this up. These cakes behind is also natural. Most of all, being a BBW is different. I have a man tell me once.

How can I be a BBW and have such a small waist. Because if you held my waist you’d see that what makes my middle look thick outside of my stomach is my love handles. Not all belly fat

its self. Standing out, and showing off is key when it comes to me. The next videos I post. You simply see what color my hair is. Most of the time, its never going to be normal!

Love,

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